Mar, I’m not sure there could have been a different outcome. It looks like you did everything you were supposed to do. If you’re thinking of the women, why would you do unnecessary procedures on their dog? Wouldn’t that be unethical?
I would not have been talked into the anesthesia to look up the nose for that reason.
But, I would have been willing to accept the low risk associated with inducing vomiting, if it would have put their minds at ease. I didn’t want to even do that, because there IS a risk, but they were so upset that I thought if that would make them feel better, then I would agree, as long as they understood it was not my recommendation.
As it turned out, their upset-ness ramped up to the point that there was no way they were going to get un-upset no matter what, so they refused any treatment at that point.
I’m totally overreacting right now. I know it.
I just need to calm down, forget about it, and move on. But I can’t just magically get there in the blink of an eye because I want to. And others telling me soothing things isn’t helping either. (The other docs were sympathetic at rounds this AM because I was so upset). It didn’t take much to just send me into an “ugly cry” episode as Robin says.
And the women from last night were totally overreacting. Maybe they realized they were doing it but were not able to stop. And all my reassurances and trying to do ANYTHING to help them feel more at ease were just not going to work. Maybe I actually have something very much in common with those ladies.
At the time I was really struggling to understand why they were being so irrational and upset. I guess now I understand, in the sense that I’m experiencing something similar… not that that really helps me have a solution for either of us. I still feel bad that I was not able to help them and in fact they left even more upset than when they arrived. And it was so frustrating because there was no reason to be upset, and I am sure of that, yet my best efforts could not convey it, nor could any of my actions help them.
Maybe that will help me understand the next person that acts in a similar way better. I really tried, I wanted to help them, and not anger and upset them. And now my failure has upset ME.
So upset right now. Just… I can’t get out of this endless loop of badness playing in my head. I just keep thinking, what could I have done to get a different outcome? Why? Why? Why?
And a migraine.
And I didn’t run. Yet.
I almost thought I’d come home and blow my nearly 11 months of no booze. But I am so upset that having a drink doesn’t even appeal to me.
This year I’ve changed my attitude. I have developed new coping strategies. I’ve gotten over bad habits and developed good ones. I’ve worked so hard.
So why do I feel so fucked in the head right now?
I’ll sort it out. I will. And I guess that’s when I’ll be back. Til then, I need to shut up and work on unfucking my head-space.
Oh poor Laika! Why must you torture her so! :)
I know, I’m mean!
I was going to let the eyelid masses go (they are most likely benign), but they were on the eyelid margin and rubbing her eye, causing her to have lots of “eye boogers” throughout the day. I think after the sutures are out, she won’t have as much eye irritation from those tiny masses rubbing on the cornea.
It’s a common thing in older dogs and I figured it would be reasonable to fix while she was under.
I keep thinking, well, she’s XX years old and she’s a big dog with some health problems, how much longer is she going to be around? But she’s been going strong all this time, so…
Age is not a disease.
I just keep repeating that to myself and I treat her accordingly, as long as I’m not doing anything that will make her unhappy or uncomfortable.
I did tell my colleague that if she had any teeth that were in need of a root canal vs. extraction, to just extract them. With one of my younger girls, we’d go to the dental specialist for a root canal, but I didn’t want to put her through 2 anesthesias just to save a tooth she could live without.
Turns out, her teeth were fine, just worn down.
where did you get those tights?
Dick’s Sporting Goods online (or as Kate calls it, Richard’s, LOL)
They are Nike “hyperwarm” and they were $65. I got a medium and they fit well. They don’t seem particularly warm, in fact, they are a thin fabric. They don’t have a drawstring, which worried me, but they didn’t slip down on my run today.
This is my only piece of Nike clothing. I hope they will be durable. IDK why most tights are black. I love colorful workout clothes and will always buy the most colorful stuff available. :)